I just got back from Lake of the Ozarks, and the temptation was just too great. It's not like I would ever violate my virginity before marriage, but purity is so much more than that. I often have wandering eyes and worse, a wandering mind. I try to cut any sort of impure thoughts off at the source before they grow debilitating, but the constant flow of them easily weakens me.
Girls, please, I beg you with all my heart, be modest in your attire.
Focusing inward now: I'm so sick of living this life of worldly lust and competition. I feel like I need a decent body to find my wife. I've been sucked into society's lies. It can happen to anyone: I even recognize those lies for what they are, and I am verbally outspoken against them. Still, they poison me. I have trouble maintaining pure friendships with girls; nothing happens physically or even verbally, but I constantly feel a need to keep myself from sounding like I'm flirting with girls I'm not attracted to, and I need to secretly work in ways to attract girls to me who I am attracted to. It's a dangerous cycle, and it's tearing me apart.
I desire friendships with females. I want to love them and care for them as I would a sister or my mom. I want the same for guys. I want to sincerely love people I don't know well and come to meet their needs. I want to be sincere with everyone. I need to stop acting, stop pretending, stop being so fake (which is exactly what I tell people we all need to fight against) and just start being genuine.
I need to be more Christlike. I need more Christ in my life.
Romans 10:17